Right. Here goes. Turned 40 over Xmas, split up with longterm ex a few years back and got into a pattern of nightly boozing, weeding and staying up VERY late, working the rest of the time.
This year, I've made a very concerted effort to eliminate that addictive crap and get my sleep patterns back to normal levels. January was waaaaay bad, was averaging 2-3hrs of fragmented sleep per night, tired and irritable at work all the time. But Feb's been different, sleep keeps getting better and better, to the point where I can now nod off as soon as I hit the sack. And after three years, I now *DREAM* again...with a vengeance...each night more vivid...weird dreams...nice dreams...sex dreams.........
.......until early last week, I'd finished a night shift. Daylight outside. But, super-duper tired. And...I must've nodded off but briefly awoke, clock said 8.02am, and all my chest n' back was warm and giddy and buzzing...and I kinda (soz but tis true!) floated up out of my body, totally lucid, and basically 'swam' around the ceiling for a couple of minutes...all the time feeling scared but also wanting to 'push' it because all the time I was getting a strong feeling pulling me back in. In the end, that 'pull' got too great, and I went back and 'awoke'...even though I was already awake. Felt a bit spooky but then went back to sleep, just thought it was one of those odd, fun events that only happen once in a blue moon. Was not freaked, didn't tell anyone, just left it at that.
BUT....happened again last night, and moreso. Woke at 3.12am and my upper back was super-warm and shaking. I'd left the telly on in bluescreen mode and I couldn't switch it off, remote just wouldn't work. And I knew it was weird. And my back is RATTLING then I float out of my bleedin' body AGAIN!!!!!....
And I'm hovering (more steadfastly than before) and I'm startled but kinda happy and kinda worried...and then I get this massive ball of anx and try to go outside, I am fully conscious, lucid and in 'control' of all this (it's a tentative, shaky control, with that constant feeling of getting pulled back) and I somehow go thru the glass and into the garden (hearing some weird inner voice saying "see, you can do it"), then get pulled back...then the feeling got weaker for 1-2mins and then me back and chest revs up AGAIN and I'm out on the landing...pulled back...weaker again...one last time and I make it just to the door..but I'm flailing my arms about and I can feel these 'hands' above me that I can grab...but something inside is telling me not to....even though they seem sort of 'kind'!!!!!!
So, straight back to my body and it all instantly 'unlocks'. It's 3.27am on the clock and I can turn that telly off now. Back to sleep then have an uberhorny dream about Supernanny. Wake up all WTF?!!
I never tried to trigger this stuff, nowadays it's BAM! as soon as I hit that pillow, I'm not into New Agey ish, I'm not into attention-seeking, in fact I'm pretty shy and keep myself to myself mostly. I'm not on any meds or hallucinate...but that ish was VERY real...also strangely mundane for such a quirky experience...it was also pretty fun...scary fun but big fun.
Anyone else get this? And on the regular?? Sod gaming, it's next level ish!!!!!!
Again, hope I don't sound too nuts, just hope is of interest to some.
This year, I've made a very concerted effort to eliminate that addictive crap and get my sleep patterns back to normal levels. January was waaaaay bad, was averaging 2-3hrs of fragmented sleep per night, tired and irritable at work all the time. But Feb's been different, sleep keeps getting better and better, to the point where I can now nod off as soon as I hit the sack. And after three years, I now *DREAM* again...with a vengeance...each night more vivid...weird dreams...nice dreams...sex dreams.........
.......until early last week, I'd finished a night shift. Daylight outside. But, super-duper tired. And...I must've nodded off but briefly awoke, clock said 8.02am, and all my chest n' back was warm and giddy and buzzing...and I kinda (soz but tis true!) floated up out of my body, totally lucid, and basically 'swam' around the ceiling for a couple of minutes...all the time feeling scared but also wanting to 'push' it because all the time I was getting a strong feeling pulling me back in. In the end, that 'pull' got too great, and I went back and 'awoke'...even though I was already awake. Felt a bit spooky but then went back to sleep, just thought it was one of those odd, fun events that only happen once in a blue moon. Was not freaked, didn't tell anyone, just left it at that.
BUT....happened again last night, and moreso. Woke at 3.12am and my upper back was super-warm and shaking. I'd left the telly on in bluescreen mode and I couldn't switch it off, remote just wouldn't work. And I knew it was weird. And my back is RATTLING then I float out of my bleedin' body AGAIN!!!!!....
And I'm hovering (more steadfastly than before) and I'm startled but kinda happy and kinda worried...and then I get this massive ball of anx and try to go outside, I am fully conscious, lucid and in 'control' of all this (it's a tentative, shaky control, with that constant feeling of getting pulled back) and I somehow go thru the glass and into the garden (hearing some weird inner voice saying "see, you can do it"), then get pulled back...then the feeling got weaker for 1-2mins and then me back and chest revs up AGAIN and I'm out on the landing...pulled back...weaker again...one last time and I make it just to the door..but I'm flailing my arms about and I can feel these 'hands' above me that I can grab...but something inside is telling me not to....even though they seem sort of 'kind'!!!!!!
So, straight back to my body and it all instantly 'unlocks'. It's 3.27am on the clock and I can turn that telly off now. Back to sleep then have an uberhorny dream about Supernanny. Wake up all WTF?!!
I never tried to trigger this stuff, nowadays it's BAM! as soon as I hit that pillow, I'm not into New Agey ish, I'm not into attention-seeking, in fact I'm pretty shy and keep myself to myself mostly. I'm not on any meds or hallucinate...but that ish was VERY real...also strangely mundane for such a quirky experience...it was also pretty fun...scary fun but big fun.
Anyone else get this? And on the regular?? Sod gaming, it's next level ish!!!!!!
Again, hope I don't sound too nuts, just hope is of interest to some.
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